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My knee-jerk reaction to finishing it was to send the product to my editorial team?to look over and to let them know I was comfortable having it published, but when it went up the following week, my heart sunk into my knees and my gut felt like it was being punched on repeat. I wept and wept and wept inside a very ornate hotel room at The Ritz in Paris Isabel Marant Shoes Online for Im not kidding 75 minutes.
This is what The People must have meant by Isabel Marant Sale brave, I thought. And now I totally get it. I wasnt ready to share my story, and some people never are.
It was (and is) still so raw and personal and for whatever reason, I didnt want people to feel comfortable consoling me. Maybe thats because I was still getting used to having to learn how to console myself. (You cant take water from an empty reservoir, and the only way to fill the metaphoric ones that lives inside of us?is by looking inward, not outward for help or consolation.) Of course, when I am able to step away from my upset for a moment and look at my life objectively, two things are crystal clear.
The amount of support and love that surrounds me is both overwhelming and humbling. The old me would have said that I dont deserve it, but the new me thinks everyone me included deserves an infinite well of love that does not flicker.
I am lucky that I havent known how to manage this loss. That my arsenal?of emotional tools-for-repair is not complete with the restoration weapons I am now becoming familiar with.?It means I have never had to experience grief like this before.